I have to say some days are just tooooo hard to take. While listening to the news on the radio last night on the way home from work I about had an anixety attack I think..... there was NOTHING good in the news. All these killings, drug bust, kids being abused, etc, etc, I just wanted to jump out of the moving vehicle. I just freak out sometimes knowing that the world is like it is today and I have kids that are going to grow up in this society. I think about taking them home and keeping them in their own little world and away from all this chaos. I should start my own compound. But then I think about teaching them about this chaos and life and some how teaching them to be stronger than all of it and make a difference in the world. That is really my goal as a mother.

If you don't normally read my husband's blog... please check it out today. He has a story about a friend of ours from the bike trails up in Winona. I am just devestated about this story. I think Steve and I both are very bummed and just beside ourselves about this story. I can not imagine what would push our friend to behave like this. And that is the hard thing for me... I want to know WHY he did this - WHY ??? There has to be some reason. Maybe it was drugs. I can't imagine that but it would explain the behavior. I just can't quit thinking about it and praying for him to make it. I am so thankful he didn't complete what he apparently set out to do!

The only good thing...... is it is days closer to our night away. I can't wait.

A Piper funny last night. I was giving her her bath. I was working on teaching her again about brushing her teeth. So, I got my toothbrush out and I was showing her while she was sitting in the tub. She then wanted my toothbrush so I let her have it. I was fine with her "brushing" her teeth but when she started to put it in the bath water.... I took it from her hand quickly. To which she replied" Be Nice" well, so with that not talking much thing...... she is starting to say and talk more. She still isn't there yet but it is really starting to sound like words and a few word sentences. And with that little snappy comment from last night I learned I may not always want to hear what she has to say!! And another funny about that is WE ALWAYS TELL HER TO BE NICE! like when she is petting the dogs, trying to hit you in the face, etc.... so she is learning something. I just have to hold out hope she doesn't say a curse word next!!!

Only walked yesterday during breaks at work. I don't want to come out of the gates running and kill myself the first week. I did plan to walk last night. But I ran to the library to return my books from a couple of weeks ago and pick up the next book in the Blossom series of Debbie Macomber. And Piper was crabby and just wanted to piddle in the garage and yard so no walk last night. I will have to go tonight though - I had out newsletters for part of our addition and they have to be delivered by tonight!